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Saturday, January 26

these past few months have been such a rollercoaster, i have no idea how i've survived or how im gonna survive anymore.
my heart has shattered a million times, but some how you always manage to fix it. fix it so well, that the next time it breaks its like a million times worse than the one before.
i dont blame you in any way.
cos i know you're doing your best and everything in your power to try and make me happy, and make things work. but i need help, your help. and i know i go overboard sometimes, all the time.
but cant you help me instead of getting so angry.
you have no idea how hard its been for me, or mayb you do.
so cant you cut me some slack. i need time.
and i really need help.
i've thought over and over again, how and why it came to this.
everyday i think, wouldnt it be so much better if i were just gone.
so that you could be so much happier, so that i could just watch you be happy from afar.
then i think how miserable i'd be without you.
call me selfish. i guess i really am huh.
well.
im sorry. i truly am.
i guess loving someone is not always a good thing aye.
but i cant seem to help it.
and i hate myself for loving you so god damn much.
cos all it ever does is get me into trouble with you.

im just hoping for a miracle.
i need you baby.
and i just hope you need me/love me/want me, as much as i do.
please. look after my fragile heart, and please, dont run away.
i trust you. i do.
i trusted you all this while, thats why i fell so god damn hard this time, and as much as i want to trust you as much as before, its takin me time, time which i do not have, thats why i need you, i need you to understand and help pick me up from this horrific fall, i need you to save me.
so please, save me will you. amd just come back to me safe and sound. i love you. i truly do. from the bottom of my heart, to bits and pieces and atoms smaller than that. i do. <3

i feel like im drowning in the ocean, somebody come and take me away.

i hate how much i love you boy, i cant stand how much i need you, and i hate how much i love you boy, but i just cant let you go, and i hate that i love you so.

much love.
hugs and kisses.
lil`princess.samantha*
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xoxoxoxo

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wishlist* ;

<3 holiday with baby! :D
<3 $$MONEY$$ for shopping and partayyingg! :D
<3 citiclear credit card. :D hee.
i want i want i want! heh.
<3 preeetttyyy dress for CNY! :D
ASAP!!! by feb.
<3 a pair of dunks! (:
<3 a pair of pretttyy shadess. (:
<3 more clothess! :D
<3 guess wallet! :D
<3 guess bag! :D
<3 or well, just a preeettty bag! hee. :D
<3 PSP slim in a preeeetttty colour. (:

<3 long lasting protection for my fragile heart.
<3 a special machine that erases evil bad memories. ): please..? ):
<3 a fairy god mother who can make ALL my wishes come true.

2008 new year's resolution.
<3 lose weight.
<3 get stronger and learn to be independant.
<3 be self sufficeint, and detach.
<3 be selfless, yet selfish at times.
<3 learn not be taken advantage of.
<3 protect my own god damn heart.

upcoming events of february* (:

.x[o1] HAPPY FEBRUARY 2008! :D
.x[o7] CNY.
.x[14] VALENTINE'S DAY. <3
.x[14] nurus & luigi bday! [20]
.x[21] manda's bday! [19]

significant days* ((:

`x[1oo3o6] pu2 fun day! ((:
>>amazing race.sentosa.o5a3. campfire.garnet.dance.that thing you do.MI dance.i need to know.walk home.fallin star. ((:

`x[28o4o6] love. (:
>>town.bk.marina square.take the lead.west coast park.home. (:

`x[o7o7o6] LOVE.
>>lovesweetsweetlove.playground.love actually. HEARTS. ((: juz you and me. yes.yes. (:

`x[21o7o6] my 8teenth bday!! (:
>>phonecall.msgs.love. school.pressies.chocs.bag.songS.class.tennis.soccer. KAP.balloon.cake.watch. dinner.flowers.bag.bears.ring.my humble house(esplanade).cake.phonecall. (((: LOVE.

`x[2112o6] PARTAYY @ MOS! (:
>>clarkequay.absolut.MOS.drink. r&b.dancedancedance.vodka redbull. bacardibreezer.dancedancedance.4++am.

`x[3o12o6] partay @ gallery! (:
>>check-in.getting ready.arrival.food.drinks.indian poker. soccer.drinks.music. cards.jenga.sleepover.check-out.

`x[3112o6] new year's eve! (:
>>meet the family! (:.peking duck.monopoly.cabride. esplanade.countdown.fireworks.love. harry's@esplanade.tiger.bus.cab.

`x[16o2o7] girls night out at DXO! (:
>>shopping.hm.clementi mrt@10++pm.cityhall. esplanade.DXO.drinks.dancedancedance. #11.3++am.hm.

`x[3oo6o7] sweetheart's 20th birthday! (:
>>call baby at 12mn!(: came over. slpt.wokeup. he went to work. shopping with jl in town.surprise baby at work. dinner at billybombers@7.30pm with sweetie.steak&milkshake for him.fish&chips&pinkpussycat for me. transformers@cine(:.back to baby's sis place.model.hm. (:

`x[o7o7o7] happy anniversary darlinggg! 1yr,365 days! + mos& PUNK'D!(:
>>meet baby.give him present. (: bus to town then to MOS.get chop.distract baby. PUNK'D sweetie! HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY DARLING!(: and happy anniversaryy! hee. <3

`x[21o7o7] my 9teenth birthday!(:
>>phonecall from jl&ful. (: phonecall from baby.slp. lunch with baby@hv.coldrock. SURPRISE!cake&ballooon! i got PUNK'D. :D hm.change.dinner@myhumblehouse(esplanade,again). kinglear with a.chris.then to MOS.change&PARTAYY! (:

`x[171oo7] graduation day!
>>breakfast and grocery shopping with baby for teacher's pressies.hm.pack stuff.jl.char.dory.came over to get readyy. (: but flowers.cab to sch.recieve prize.(: give out pressies.hm.change.NYDC@hv.zouk.(:

`x[2o11o7] THE END OF 'A'LEVELS.(: WOOOHOOO!
>>ITS OVER! (: bubbletea.cab to char's place.change.prepare everything.SURPRISE!cut cake.SURPRISE!give pressies.dinner.drinking game with coke.PEEEEEEE. to vivo.then all came over. played TABOO&watched tv.then they left. (:

`x[o112o7] trip to batam. (:
>>wake up at 6am after only slping at 430++. ): harbourfront ferry terminal.eat.check in.ferry.batam.busride.orphanage@rampang.setup.Mikel.cute 7yearold.lunch@kelong.holidayinn. check in.nap.busride to shopping centre.dinner@a&w. shopping@polo.back to hotel.slp.wake up@7. back to orphanage@rampang.party with kids.back to ferry terminal.miss ferry.eat.walk ard.ferry.CHOPPY waters. ): hm sweetsweet hm.call baby. baby came overr! (:

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