im not allowed to be online.
but i am.
and like always.
i have to stop.
i have to stop.
i have to stop.
ignorance is bliss.
ignorance is bliss.
ignorance is bliss.
ignorance is bliss.
ignorance is bliss.
ignorance is bliss.
but still.
it doesnt stop me from wondering.
it doesnt stop me from thinking.
u kept me in the dark.
u are her superhero?
you have such a close bond.
she likes u so much.
wth is goin on.
dont tell me.
i dont want to noe.
im not supposed to noe.
im suppose to be kept in the dark.
at least for these few months.
when everything gets exposed.
will it turn out the way i want it to?
or will this be sth i regret.
i dont understand.
how is it you havent stopped.
how is it you dont see it from my point of view.
why cant u keep away from her?
why wont she just BACK OFF.
is there sth she has that i dont?
what is it she has that i dont?
you used to say i was perfect.
m i that detestable that she's of more importance than me?
y is she so impt?
who is she to you and who m I to you?
y does it matter wad she thinks.
y does it matter wad she does.
does it even matter what i do or what i think?
why will u msg her so often but not even reply me.
last time it was all bout me and what i want.
now it seems its either me or her.
i dont want to lose you.
i love you so much.
but it seems like a lost cause.
it seems like i've already lost you.
to her.
and that just breaks my heart.
because i trusted you SO much.
i trust you SO much.
i love you so much.
i gave u my whole heart.
and nothin less.
i gave u me.
but somehow it just feels like u dont want me.
it feels like you took my heart and threw it on da floor.
and you're both stepping on it.
i see a me and u in u and her.
and it scares me.
im insecure.
but why wont u try to comfort me?
so she's insecure.
what about me?
she blogged bout me but does that matter?
how could she.
how could you.
you didnt even come to my defence.
did u even care.
u hurt me.
so god damn much.
but im still right here.
once bitten twice shy.
thrice bitten...
im okay.
i am.
i will be.
i will appear to be.
cos thats wad its all bout.
getting thru my As.
dear god.
pls make things work for the better.
pls make things okay.
pls make things go back to the way it was.
pls bring him back to me.
pls take her out of the equation.
pls get me thru my As.
much love.
hugs and kisses.
lil`princess.samantha*
(:
xoxoxoxo
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upcoming events of february* (:
.x[o1] HAPPY FEBRUARY 2008! :D
.x[o7] CNY.
.x[14] VALENTINE'S DAY. <3
.x[14] nurus & luigi bday! [20]
.x[21] manda's bday! [19]
significant days* ((:
`x[1oo3o6] pu2 fun day! ((:
>>amazing race.sentosa.o5a3. campfire.garnet.dance.that thing you do.MI dance.i need to know.walk home.fallin star. ((:
`x[28o4o6] love. (:
>>town.bk.marina square.take the lead.west coast park.home. (:
`x[o7o7o6] LOVE.
>>lovesweetsweetlove.playground.love actually. HEARTS. ((: juz you and me. yes.yes. (:
`x[21o7o6] my 8teenth bday!! (:
>>phonecall.msgs.love. school.pressies.chocs.bag.songS.class.tennis.soccer. KAP.balloon.cake.watch.
dinner.flowers.bag.bears.ring.my humble house(esplanade).cake.phonecall. (((: LOVE.
`x[2112o6] PARTAYY @ MOS! (:
>>clarkequay.absolut.MOS.drink. r&b.dancedancedance.vodka redbull. bacardibreezer.dancedancedance.4++am.
`x[3o12o6] partay @ gallery! (:
>>check-in.getting ready.arrival.food.drinks.indian poker. soccer.drinks.music. cards.jenga.sleepover.check-out.
`x[3112o6] new year's eve! (:
>>meet the family! (:.peking duck.monopoly.cabride. esplanade.countdown.fireworks.love. harry's@esplanade.tiger.bus.cab.
`x[16o2o7] girls night out at DXO! (:
>>shopping.hm.clementi mrt@10++pm.cityhall. esplanade.DXO.drinks.dancedancedance. #11.3++am.hm.
`x[3oo6o7] sweetheart's 20th birthday! (:
>>call baby at 12mn!(: came over. slpt.wokeup. he went to work. shopping with jl in town.surprise baby at work. dinner at billybombers@7.30pm with sweetie.steak&milkshake for him.fish&chips&pinkpussycat for me. transformers@cine(:.back to baby's sis place.model.hm. (:
`x[o7o7o7] happy anniversary darlinggg! 1yr,365 days! + mos& PUNK'D!(:
>>meet baby.give him present. (: bus to town then to MOS.get chop.distract baby. PUNK'D sweetie! HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY DARLING!(: and happy anniversaryy! hee. <3
`x[21o7o7] my 9teenth birthday!(:
>>phonecall from jl&ful. (: phonecall from baby.slp. lunch with baby@hv.coldrock. SURPRISE!cake&ballooon! i got PUNK'D. :D hm.change.dinner@myhumblehouse(esplanade,again). kinglear with a.chris.then to MOS.change&PARTAYY! (:
`x[171oo7] graduation day!
>>breakfast and grocery shopping with baby for teacher's pressies.hm.pack stuff.jl.char.dory.came over to get readyy. (: but flowers.cab to sch.recieve prize.(: give out pressies.hm.change.NYDC@hv.zouk.(:
`x[2o11o7] THE END OF 'A'LEVELS.(: WOOOHOOO!
>>ITS OVER! (: bubbletea.cab to char's place.change.prepare everything.SURPRISE!cut cake.SURPRISE!give pressies.dinner.drinking game with coke.PEEEEEEE. to vivo.then all came over. played TABOO&watched tv.then they left. (:
`x[o112o7] trip to batam. (:
>>wake up at 6am after only slping at 430++. ): harbourfront ferry terminal.eat.check in.ferry.batam.busride.orphanage@rampang.setup.Mikel.cute 7yearold.lunch@kelong.holidayinn. check in.nap.busride to shopping centre.dinner@a&w. shopping@polo.back to hotel.slp.wake up@7. back to orphanage@rampang.party with kids.back to ferry terminal.miss ferry.eat.walk ard.ferry.CHOPPY waters. ): hm sweetsweet hm.call baby. baby came overr! (:
