its amazing how things can suddenly change at a blink of an eye yes?
well.
i guess it happens all the time.
and all because of what?
well a string of things actually.
like.
sometimes it just happens.
or mayb u think it just happens but in true fact there's sth deeper to it.
like maybe.
talkin behind someone's back thinking they'll never find out?
or
mayb juz pointblank "in-your-face" kinda bad vibes?
or
mayb the way one may view themselves and others and therefore make assumptions and conclusions.
or
maybe its because of a third party, who puts in new ideas and thoughts into ones head?
or
mayb its juz a sudden realisation that "HEY, mayb after all that, i just dont like you."
or
mayb its just because shit happens.
or
mayb its a combination of all!
its hard to say/explain whats goin on.
but simply put i think its differences that tear ppl apart.
and unexpected hurtful words from someone, said about YOU.
and mayb the occasional ommission in things and the distance apart.
there are a million things i want to say now.
but lets not go there.
things might turn ugly.
and guess who will be to blame?
surprise!
im no teacher's pet.
im no A star student.
im not a fantastic daughter.
im not that great a gf.
im not perfect.
no one is.
and im thankful to those who accept me for who i am.
(:
i think once in a while, we need to learn to reflect on what we've done and have a reality check.
its okay to noe ur not perfect.
its okay to lose out once in a while.
even if it means being one out of two who dont go for sth you looked fwd to from a million years ago.
sth that you thought you'd be part of because it was in-grained into ur head that u would go and it'll be that much fun.
its also okay to noe that some ppl juz dont like you, and wont stand up for you.
its a reality check.
da world after school aint no happy fairytale land.
im glad im gettin good experiences now.
though im not doin much and juz irritatin baby at times.
at lesat next time it wont be much of a shocker to me.
it still shocks me now, all the things thats happenin ard me.
but im a big girl.
i'll deal with it.
plus i got da help of my friends and my baby. (:
thanks sweetie! (:
btw.
happie 11th month darling. (:
and jl.
thanks for being there and listenin to all my shit.
heh.
and i noe i noe.
we have to do it.
and we will.
okay. (:
much love.
hugs and kisses.
lil`princess.samantha*
(:
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upcoming events of february* (:
.x[o1] HAPPY FEBRUARY 2008! :D
.x[o7] CNY.
.x[14] VALENTINE'S DAY. <3
.x[14] nurus & luigi bday! [20]
.x[21] manda's bday! [19]
significant days* ((:
`x[1oo3o6] pu2 fun day! ((:
>>amazing race.sentosa.o5a3. campfire.garnet.dance.that thing you do.MI dance.i need to know.walk home.fallin star. ((:
`x[28o4o6] love. (:
>>town.bk.marina square.take the lead.west coast park.home. (:
`x[o7o7o6] LOVE.
>>lovesweetsweetlove.playground.love actually. HEARTS. ((: juz you and me. yes.yes. (:
`x[21o7o6] my 8teenth bday!! (:
>>phonecall.msgs.love. school.pressies.chocs.bag.songS.class.tennis.soccer. KAP.balloon.cake.watch.
dinner.flowers.bag.bears.ring.my humble house(esplanade).cake.phonecall. (((: LOVE.
`x[2112o6] PARTAYY @ MOS! (:
>>clarkequay.absolut.MOS.drink. r&b.dancedancedance.vodka redbull. bacardibreezer.dancedancedance.4++am.
`x[3o12o6] partay @ gallery! (:
>>check-in.getting ready.arrival.food.drinks.indian poker. soccer.drinks.music. cards.jenga.sleepover.check-out.
`x[3112o6] new year's eve! (:
>>meet the family! (:.peking duck.monopoly.cabride. esplanade.countdown.fireworks.love. harry's@esplanade.tiger.bus.cab.
`x[16o2o7] girls night out at DXO! (:
>>shopping.hm.clementi mrt@10++pm.cityhall. esplanade.DXO.drinks.dancedancedance. #11.3++am.hm.
`x[3oo6o7] sweetheart's 20th birthday! (:
>>call baby at 12mn!(: came over. slpt.wokeup. he went to work. shopping with jl in town.surprise baby at work. dinner at billybombers@7.30pm with sweetie.steak&milkshake for him.fish&chips&pinkpussycat for me. transformers@cine(:.back to baby's sis place.model.hm. (:
`x[o7o7o7] happy anniversary darlinggg! 1yr,365 days! + mos& PUNK'D!(:
>>meet baby.give him present. (: bus to town then to MOS.get chop.distract baby. PUNK'D sweetie! HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY DARLING!(: and happy anniversaryy! hee. <3
`x[21o7o7] my 9teenth birthday!(:
>>phonecall from jl&ful. (: phonecall from baby.slp. lunch with baby@hv.coldrock. SURPRISE!cake&ballooon! i got PUNK'D. :D hm.change.dinner@myhumblehouse(esplanade,again). kinglear with a.chris.then to MOS.change&PARTAYY! (:
`x[171oo7] graduation day!
>>breakfast and grocery shopping with baby for teacher's pressies.hm.pack stuff.jl.char.dory.came over to get readyy. (: but flowers.cab to sch.recieve prize.(: give out pressies.hm.change.NYDC@hv.zouk.(:
`x[2o11o7] THE END OF 'A'LEVELS.(: WOOOHOOO!
>>ITS OVER! (: bubbletea.cab to char's place.change.prepare everything.SURPRISE!cut cake.SURPRISE!give pressies.dinner.drinking game with coke.PEEEEEEE. to vivo.then all came over. played TABOO&watched tv.then they left. (:
`x[o112o7] trip to batam. (:
>>wake up at 6am after only slping at 430++. ): harbourfront ferry terminal.eat.check in.ferry.batam.busride.orphanage@rampang.setup.Mikel.cute 7yearold.lunch@kelong.holidayinn. check in.nap.busride to shopping centre.dinner@a&w. shopping@polo.back to hotel.slp.wake up@7. back to orphanage@rampang.party with kids.back to ferry terminal.miss ferry.eat.walk ard.ferry.CHOPPY waters. ): hm sweetsweet hm.call baby. baby came overr! (:
