hmm.
in da mids of "studyin" for gp.
well more like readin up.
and well.
it started me thinkin.
ALOT.
like.
how there r so many things i juz wanna do that i cant.
or like how i want so many things but i cant haf em.
like haf baby here wit me rite now.
or juz spending all da time in da world wit ppl i love da most.
i wanted sth so bad last yr.
but i din get it.
coz i din try.
it hurts.
to watch everythin goin on.
knowing u cud haf beena part of that sth.
but u juz din fill that one form.
some of u wud noe wad im tokin abt.
da rest.
its alrite.
i'll leave u wonderin.
well.
aft seeing wads goin on.
im not onli hurt.
im upset.
im disgusted.
well not entirely.
but i am.
for such a thing to happen.
sometimes u juz question.
"what were they thinkin?"
"y did they do that?"
and yet u don ask.
u cant ask.
but da question's burnin deep inside of u.
i noe that startin tmr.
i'll haf a hard time.
i'll prolly nva forgive myself.
prolly keep thinkin bout it.
yea.
its a new yr.
but some things r juz brought over.
its like.
u juz cant help it.
even tho i noe that tmr i'll be happie to see my frens.
and mayb that can make me forget my "anger".
but in my heart i noe.
deep down.
i'll always be upset bout it.
i guess everythin has its pros and cons.
its juz life.
i don hate sch.
in fact i love it.
i juz don like studyin.
c.
yet another pro and con.
i dunno.
sometimes life juz seems so unfair.
but i guess.
and i hope.
that over time.
i'll be able to overcome it.
juz as long as i haf no more "surprises" in that issue.
i guess i'll be alrite.
yea.
oh wells.
guess im juz not in a very happy mood now m i.
baby left last nite.
im exhausted.
tryin to study for gp.
which is quite depressin.
seein how in da topic of family there's.
"divorce."
"single parents."
"broken families."
"separation."
it juz brings bak unwanted memories.
yea.
on da good side.
baby's in NY rite now.
at central park waitin for da bus to leave.
he's safe and sound.
he called.
we talked.
im happie.
(:
watched king kong today.
its so worth the money.
even tho i find that its a horror show.
haha.
well.
da beginning is at least.
den its also sad.
yet funny.
and sweet.
he's a sweet monkey.
all he did was fall in love.
and he had to die.
):
so sads.
i teared.
)':
yea.
ok.
til next time den.
tata.
hugs and kisses.
lil`princess.samantha*
(:
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