okies..life's screweddd..lalalala..cough cough* im a sick person yet again..missed yesterday's mock examss coz was sick...and had to send mi baby off...cant believe he's gone..again...i miss him already....and i miss him badly..usually by this time..i would have seen him or at least talked to him on the fone..but no no..he's in LA now..sleepin...soundly like my little baby always is...3 months has passed by so fast..i cant believe he's gone again..yest...i kept askin him if he was sure he's goin..i asked him over and over again..til he refused to ans mi..ha...on fri nite....helped him pack..yeah..spent mi last few hours wit him..i couldnt help but cry...2 weeks ago..wen i found out he was leavin in da mornin..i cried and cried..thinkin i coudnt send him off..but yest i cried coz i had to send him off..wen we were at da airport...we had to wait for a while b4 we could confirm he got a ticket...wen his dad said it might be full..damn..i was so happie..den b4 u noe it..his bags were checked in..den they left..as he turned away from mi..my eyes juz filled with tears..and it started rollin down..i wanted to stay to wave goodbye..but i couldnt..i knew he wud be upset..but i so baadly wanted to c him..but i couldnt..i juz walked away..slowly..ppl were lookin at me weird..butg i couldnt help it...went to da taxi stand..stopped cryin wen i recieved his msg..den got into a cab..and cried yet again...msged him like 2 msgs..and he was gone..i cried like halfway home..den i stopped..thinkin of how i promised him i wouldnt cry...wen i got home..fell asleep and woke up at 2+..went to da docs..got more medicine and an mc..yeah..
last nite..watched alienVS predator..found it reali funny..and da othr funny thing was tt..right next to mi..was an empty seat...definitely for my baby..juz that he wasnt there..sigh...went bak to uncle tony's place..watched 13 goin on 30..its a great show..wanna watch it again..its so sweet..i almost cried..it shows love..friendship..changes in life..yeah..i loved it..reached home at bout 3..used da com for a while..was checking baby's ebay stuff..so happie we won da baby shoess..its so adorable..baby nike dunkss..its unbelievably small and cutes..lovit! went to SIA website to check wad time baby was arrivin..some how..din now how to read it..but it seemed funny..his plane wa delayed..god noes if he landed..i had no idea how to read it..but yeah..den i had to slp..prayin he was fine..den sent him a msg..and dis mornin wen i woke up..saw msgs from him..thank god..den i went back to slp..woke up at bout 3..onli to find him not by my side..and yeah..i reali miss him..wish he were awake..wish he were here..but i keep tellin myself..da faster time flies..da earlier he'll be by my side..yes? yes..and if i study hard enough..mayb i can go study wit him..that'll be sweet..thats all i want right now..to get reali good grades..that way..i can get into a good sch..study hard..and he'll hopefully be by my side..thats wad im gonna pray and wish for..yes yes... :)
please god..make my wish come true..help mi get good grades so i can study with him by my side.. :) thank you...and please look after my baby..keep him safe and happie always :) help him get through his exams and help him achieve his 86..thank you..also help my frens to relax..and study hard for da up comin prelims and os or whatever exams they may be takin..help them stay happie and make em smile always..and let them know they are needed here..let them know their purpose here..and help them think on the positive side of life..thank you :) please also help mi look after mummy...she's in beijing now..let her haf a safe trip tonight as she will be comin back tml morning...help mummy be happie again..coz she's been goin through alot this whole year..let her find happiness in whatever she does..help her find her mystery man.. thank you :)
hope everythin will be fine..! stay happie every1..love ya! miss my little baby..sigh...okies..gtg..byebye...
pIgGiE* +mUaXiEs+ [i miss you..like crazy..*]
inlovewithyou-//*
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me.myself.*
._x samantha.cheng*//samantha.leo-mckerrow*
._x EIGHTteen`` (: [years]-
._x princess.angel.baby.etc. >p //*;
._x 21 july 1nine8eight.//x
._x hpps || gmss || MI[tohtuck].``
._x bowling. tennis* ^^
+*hUgGiEs*+ iN tOtaL! HuG mi moRe! hee!*
+hUgGiEsSs+ hug mi! :P
geT uR oWn +hUgGiEsSs+!
upcoming events of february* (:
.x[o1] HAPPY FEBRUARY 2008! :D
.x[o7] CNY.
.x[14] VALENTINE'S DAY. <3
.x[14] nurus & luigi bday! [20]
.x[21] manda's bday! [19]
significant days* ((:
`x[1oo3o6] pu2 fun day! ((:
>>amazing race.sentosa.o5a3. campfire.garnet.dance.that thing you do.MI dance.i need to know.walk home.fallin star. ((:
`x[28o4o6] love. (:
>>town.bk.marina square.take the lead.west coast park.home. (:
`x[o7o7o6] LOVE.
>>lovesweetsweetlove.playground.love actually. HEARTS. ((: juz you and me. yes.yes. (:
`x[21o7o6] my 8teenth bday!! (:
>>phonecall.msgs.love. school.pressies.chocs.bag.songS.class.tennis.soccer. KAP.balloon.cake.watch.
dinner.flowers.bag.bears.ring.my humble house(esplanade).cake.phonecall. (((: LOVE.
`x[2112o6] PARTAYY @ MOS! (:
>>clarkequay.absolut.MOS.drink. r&b.dancedancedance.vodka redbull. bacardibreezer.dancedancedance.4++am.
`x[3o12o6] partay @ gallery! (:
>>check-in.getting ready.arrival.food.drinks.indian poker. soccer.drinks.music. cards.jenga.sleepover.check-out.
`x[3112o6] new year's eve! (:
>>meet the family! (:.peking duck.monopoly.cabride. esplanade.countdown.fireworks.love. harry's@esplanade.tiger.bus.cab.
`x[16o2o7] girls night out at DXO! (:
>>shopping.hm.clementi mrt@10++pm.cityhall. esplanade.DXO.drinks.dancedancedance. #11.3++am.hm.
`x[3oo6o7] sweetheart's 20th birthday! (:
>>call baby at 12mn!(: came over. slpt.wokeup. he went to work. shopping with jl in town.surprise baby at work. dinner at billybombers@7.30pm with sweetie.steak&milkshake for him.fish&chips&pinkpussycat for me. transformers@cine(:.back to baby's sis place.model.hm. (:
`x[o7o7o7] happy anniversary darlinggg! 1yr,365 days! + mos& PUNK'D!(:
>>meet baby.give him present. (: bus to town then to MOS.get chop.distract baby. PUNK'D sweetie! HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY DARLING!(: and happy anniversaryy! hee. <3
`x[21o7o7] my 9teenth birthday!(:
>>phonecall from jl&ful. (: phonecall from baby.slp. lunch with baby@hv.coldrock. SURPRISE!cake&ballooon! i got PUNK'D. :D hm.change.dinner@myhumblehouse(esplanade,again). kinglear with a.chris.then to MOS.change&PARTAYY! (:
`x[171oo7] graduation day!
>>breakfast and grocery shopping with baby for teacher's pressies.hm.pack stuff.jl.char.dory.came over to get readyy. (: but flowers.cab to sch.recieve prize.(: give out pressies.hm.change.NYDC@hv.zouk.(:
`x[2o11o7] THE END OF 'A'LEVELS.(: WOOOHOOO!
>>ITS OVER! (: bubbletea.cab to char's place.change.prepare everything.SURPRISE!cut cake.SURPRISE!give pressies.dinner.drinking game with coke.PEEEEEEE. to vivo.then all came over. played TABOO&watched tv.then they left. (:
`x[o112o7] trip to batam. (:
>>wake up at 6am after only slping at 430++. ): harbourfront ferry terminal.eat.check in.ferry.batam.busride.orphanage@rampang.setup.Mikel.cute 7yearold.lunch@kelong.holidayinn. check in.nap.busride to shopping centre.dinner@a&w. shopping@polo.back to hotel.slp.wake up@7. back to orphanage@rampang.party with kids.back to ferry terminal.miss ferry.eat.walk ard.ferry.CHOPPY waters. ): hm sweetsweet hm.call baby. baby came overr! (:
